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       I was standing in the kitchen holding a glass of water; as I looked at the water, it sank me into waves of thoughts, they were scary, weird & I felt myself flowing with them. I was losing myself; I heard a harsh noise of glass breaking; I snapped out of my thoughts. “Babe, I’m so sorry; I was in a hurry, didn’t notice that you were holding the glass. I’ll clear it up.” She said rapidly. It took me a while to note what happened, as my thoughts were still clinging to the back of my mind. “Hey sweetie, it’s okay, here; let me help you.” As we both collected the shattered pieces of glass and dumped them into the dustbin, she uttered, “Adi, I’m nervous, I don’t know how my interview will go, would they select me, what if they don’t, and what should I say if they do.” She expressed her concerns. I pulled her close to me, help her in my arms, and kissed her forehead, “Deep breaths, relax. You’ll get the job, I’m sure of it, now hurry, you don’t want to be late, a...

Last night after so many days, I finally smiled from my heart. I had a smile that was wide from eye to eye. I was singing again and danced on my own on my rooftop at 4 a.m. while enjoying the cold breeze that flew mildly around me. I finally had a peaceful sleep. The past three months have been tough to deal with on every level. I was promoted to lead a project at my office. I was confident that I could do it well, Everything was going smooth, and then the news of the Covid-19 spread like wildfire and soon the lockdown was announced. Work from home was pursued for 15 days until the mail arrived, which mentioned you could work at your own will, but we can't even pay your primary salary, and I stopped working since then. It was shocking, but I couldn't do anything about it. I got back to online gaming and playing games, which I could hardly do when working. Kids from my discord servers are always there to play some games and have fun. We also recorded two podcasts, ...

       I closed the curtain behind me and sat down on the couch, wondering about my life and how I got myself in this situation. A drop of tear shed from my left eye-rolling down my face. I succumbed to my darkness. My phone began to ring, I looked over the name on the screen it was him, and unknowingly all the sadness I was drowned in started to disappear. I picked up the call and greeted him with a taunt, "finally, you got the time to call me, huh?" I was glad that he called me. I was smiling again. I still remember the day when I first met him; I was a little curious to meet him as my friend had told me many things about him. We all met on one beautiful evening sharing some snacks and catching up with each other. We were introduced to each other by our friend, and he seemed a bit shy at first. He didn't speak much, though, but something felt different about him. I was curious, and there were many pages to unfold. And here we are now sharing everything about e...

       She slowly sat down on the edge of the cliff while holding a beer in her hand. She shouted at me, "Adi, you bitchass, come here. Sit sit sit down beside me." I walked to her while adjusting my hands into my jacket as the night got colder by the minute. She stretched her hands towards me and said, "Your majesty, sit here and tell me, oops, I forgot", and she laughed until I grabbed her palm with my mine, and I rested myself beside her. She gulped down a chunk of beer in one sip, and she laid her head on my shoulders. She went further and grabbed my arms, held them in hers. I got a little bit awkward as I had no clue what to do here. There was silence for a while. Finally, I gathered a little bit of courage to talk to her as I never shut up. I asked her, "Are you okay?" "No, I'm not. Life is just shit, and people don't care. They leave you when you need them the most," she replied in a trembling voice. "To be honest, I don't...

       What does a boy tuck under the sheets looking at his cellphone do? Well, he starts writing a new blog while listening to Eddie Vedder's Society. I'm not sure what this blog will be about, as lately, I've been going through a lot, and I'm just unable to express what I truly feel. So let us begin a story in hopes of finding something that makes us feel something in the end. Caring Annoyance I've never lived with my parents until I was 17 for two years. I consider myself lucky that since the age of one, I've been staying with my grandparents. I was their shining star; they always did little things for me. I still remember when I was just a toddle who just loved to sleep; my grandmother would lay me down near our window at sunrise just so I can open my eyes to the sun's rays. My grandfather used to teach me to play the flute, read books to me and taught me my native language alphabets before even I went to school. Back then, I didn't realize that he w...

       On New Year's Eve, I was sitting on my rooftop watching the stars. While the rest of the world was getting ready to welcome the new year, I sought peace in the stars. I was going through many ups and downs, and I still am, but that's how life is. Things happen to you when you least expect them. So get ready now. I am taking you on a journey of self-discovery that I had in the past few weeks. Tighten your seat belts and grab on tight to your smartphone; we have a roller coaster that's leaving in 3... 2... 1... Let's go!!!        During the last week of 2019, I got a job as a content writer. I am happy, but it also sucks that I have to write for a business firm that I eventually wanted to write for. All things aside, I love this new aspect in writing, and I am learning a lot and making silly grammatical mistakes that my team always points out. Grammar Nazis. I can feel the change in my writing ever since.        Secondly, ...

       It was the full moon night; I was up on my rooftop at midnight at 12:12 am on 12/12. Felt like it's all meant to be. I sat down and kept observing the moon with a broad smile on my face and heartbeats slow as a snail. I played Bohemian Rhapsody that sent shivers down my spine. I closed my eyes. I decided to complete this blog of which I had just had a title in my mind, and now, here am I writing about broken things in life. Are you eager for this journey? ….Sit back, relax, and immerse yourself in my shoes.        As many of you may know, I never lived with my parents. Unlike my sister, who always had stayed with them. No wonder she recognized them better than me. I used to see my parents every year either on my summer vacation or Diwali. I was never able to bond with them. As a child, I never thought about this much, but as time passed by, I had these small realizations. All of my friends gathered around every Monday at school and told us ...

       The sky turned pinkish-blue as the sun went down, and the moon rose in the sky, and we were enjoying our cups of tea while playing a chess match. She had almost surrounded my king. I had counted the moves that I had left before I lost the game to her as she moves her pawn one step forward, and there she said, 'Check Mate.' And she started to show off with a dance move. Oh, how pleasing it was to see her enjoying her win over me. I stretched my hand towards her to congratulate her; we shook our hands. I proudly said, 'Good game, witch.' 'Indeed it was, hunter.' As she takes a sip of the Nawabi Chai that we ordered.        We left for her hostel, and I gave her my jacket as it was pretty cold. She looked like a real witch. I was wiping off the dust of the seats, and she said, 'Adi.' I saw her stretching her right hand like a lady she needs to be escorted to the ride. I gladly did. She hugged me from behind, laid her head on my back as we were...

       As I was about to leave for home. I looked at her and said, 'Aishiteru.' She smiled, her eyes were filled with joy, and we waved at each other, and that felt heavy than the Cheese Masala Dosa she ate earlier. We both knew this is it, this is it.        I woke up to a beautiful dream. I had a massive smile on my face. I took my phone, opened Spotify, and played songs from my playlist. I went through my notification, and I had a few texts from her. I quickly saw her messages and replied, but something didn't feel right: she had sent cold replies, and that's not her ever. I thought it might be because of all traveling she had done in the past few days. I slide it off my mind. When we talked after our morning snacks, something didn't felt right. She was not the usual cheerful girl today. I tried asking her, but she kept saying she is okay. I stopped. I decided to surprise her by visiting her after class in the evening so that whatever was going...

       She finally returned to her home after a long and slow journey; her bus was delayed. The atmosphere was rainy, and it was cold when she entered the gate of her house; she had a sigh of relief. She hugged her mom and then went straight to her bed, threw her bags here and there, jumped on her bed, and took a rest. And here I was sleeping my ass off all day long. I woke up in the evening around 5, yawned for a straight 20 seconds, and then lay down on the bed again.        I received a text from her, 'Hey baby, good evening!!! I smiled, and I replied, 'Good evening, what's up?'. 'Nothing much, I just want to drink tea, but we are out of tea powder; I guess I'll just have to drink coffee,' she said. 'Sure, coffee is good too. Can we talk on a video call?' I replied with some stupid thoughts in my mind. 'Gimme few minutes, I'll call.' she said hurriedly. 'Take your time.' I replied. And I got up to be refreshed. I wanted to make...